Happy Where We Are

Lately I have been so bad at not getting envious of other people. That's so awful of me! I know life is about so much more than nice cars and nice houses, yet somehow I feel like I catch myself wishing away this part of our marriage. The days where we are working maximum hours, paying loads of money for a better education, and trying to put away money for savings.

I am constantly imagining what our future house will be like, what our kids will look like, what their names will be, when we will have kids, where I will teach and everything you can think of. 

Even watching young moms with their babies I start convincing myself that it is what I need right now. Not saying I'd be mad if that happened ;) but it's just not in our "plan" right now. I am so content with Collin and I right now, and to be honest I'm perfectly fine with just us two for a long while. 

My whole thoughts of our "plan" changed last week when a sweet little lady around the age of 80 was talking to me and started crying hysterically. When I asked her what was wrong she started explaining to me that she simply couldn't believe how old she was and when she was out with some of her friends she was shocked looking around seeing how old everyone was, and that she realized just how old she was. She went on to tell me that time goes by so fast and before I know it I'm going to be as old as her. 

This stuck out to me so much! I need to stop wishing for the future, and live happily where we are now. 

We are in love, living well, and paying for school with cash, we aren't going without by any means. I think I forget that sometimes. We are so exhausted some nights, but I know it will all be worth it someday. And until then, I am going to try to be better and cherish 

every night of roman noodles, every linoleum floored bathroom we have, and even my super sexy 1996 grand prix. 

We can "plan" all we want, and imagine what life will be like later on, but what we are really missing out on is what is happening right NOW. 

We are where we need to be, we are getting to where we should be, and in time we will be there.